In fact, my last draft post was a wrap up for March and April…
Just this last week, we had our final staff meeting for the year. In this meeting, our director asked each staff member to write down a word or small sentence that describes their personal or work-related success for these past 12 months. On my card, I wrote one word; survival.
In fact, I wrote it like; SURVIVAL!!! in bright blue pen.
When it was my turn to explain my choice, I said “As of this month, I’ve survived my first year of teaching, somehow!” Everyone had their own personal victories; better work-life balance, improved interactions with staff and families, citizenship, etc… But simply surviving was mine. I was sick for about 99% of winter, colds, flu, tonsilitis, you name it. I’ve been put under stress, experienced conflict, breakdowns and seriously questioned my choices on more than one occasion. On top of this, I went through my own breakups, moved house, started a new relationship, and travelled across the country to do volunteer work– to live my ‘double life’ as my work colleague puts it.
But the above graphic is so accurate it hurts. I knew what I was getting myself into, but at the same time I couldn’t possibly. I forged new friendships, cried on the shoulder of colleagues I didn’t think I could get along with, and found new understandings in the children who taught me more than I feel I’ve taught them. I’ve learned so much, I’m stronger, and a totally different person to the me of 12 months ago.
So although this post seems like it’d be better suited to a New Years resolution or follow up… I just felt that now was the time to put my feelings into words. I’ve been slowly fitting my hobbies back into my life, and working out where my balance is right now.
That being said, I won’t post-spam anytime soon, but will definitely try to share content and reviews sporadically if possible.